I am glad to say that I now have all of my things around me, I am much calmer.
I even spent some time with grandma and san . san is still not good at taking selfies and she wanted me to be in the picture. So she had to cut the beans instead. I don't mind. It is good to be the centre of attention sometimes.
Later at night, I spent some time with san in my room. We had a quiet time together.